What I really, really want
To have the patience and the focus to sit still and wait for the presence of the Holy Spirit to come is what I want and what I need.
“But those who wait on the Lord Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint.” (Isaiah 40:31)
In the meantime, I spend time in worship and the Word — sometimes the two overlap as I read aloud or sing aloud a Psalm.
“To dwell in Your presence,
To sit at Your feet,
Where Your love surrounds me
And makes me complete…
This is my desire, O Lord,
This is my desire…”
It takes patience for me to sit a long while with no particular focus and with all my focus on Him. Sometimes nothing seems to happen. But there is usually a spark that burst within me, however brief or tiny it might be, and I experience the touch of the divine blessing He longs to give to us through His Holy Spirit, daily, hourly, moment-by-moment. It is all we really need… all I really need to be at peace, effective in prayer, wise in direction. To be filled with His presence always is the desire. I cannot make it a goal as it isn’t something I can strive towards. All I can do is rest, ask, wait.
“He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress; My God, in Him I will trust.”” (Psalm 91)
O glory to GOD who gives and asks us to be still and wait for Him.
By His Holy Spirit, He does come, sometimes as a thought, sometimes as a breath; always full of love.