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Why are we trying so hard? – A reflection on the Supernatural Working of GOD

Surrender! That is the key to everything as we relate to Yehovah GOD the Father and Jesus, His Son. Actually, I find surrender is difficult, but I persist in my efforts.

Here’s a short reflection, perhaps something some of you can relate to:

I am discovering the reality of intimacy with GOD the Father.

Oh, I’m not special. I’m just determined. And I won’t leave Him alone. Of course when he draws near, then I draw back. But I’m getting better at hanging in.

And in the waiting, I am seeing that reality is far more spiritual than it is natural.

When I gaze inwardly for a while — as I pray, I begin to feel His presence. Then when I open my eyes, what I see is the same before I closed them… and yet, it is different somehow.

I want to be close to the Father because that is what the Father wants.

I don’t want to manufacture anything. And I’m not worthy of a heavenly experience. But He says He wants me — by His Word. And so I am getting a little braver and allowing myself to surrender to Him more and more. I wait. I close my eyes to block out the physical. And I sense His presence.

Oh Father, keep me brave. And don’t give up on me. I’m beginning to discover that reality is spiritual. As that reality becomes more and more clear, I sense I will understand the miraculous. (In times past, I did bring some healing, through the laying on of hands or discernment, all in Jesus’ name. But that was decades ago.)

Maybe now, as any of us allows Him to come closer, perhaps we will be able to lay hands on people or even simply to walk passed them — as Peter did in Acts, and they will be healed.

Hoping for more

Jesus did it. He promised we would do even more. Peter did it. We must be brave and hope. One day, I’d love for GOD to move a mountain. Wouldn’t you? Could we be brave enough to allow Him to use us to do it?

It’s all through the Holy Spirit — which sounds easy, doesn’t it? So why is it so hard?

He’s so awesome. I do get quite nervous around Him, and I suppose I run away.

I think it’s time I stopped running, hiding; instead time to rest, and abide.