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Reflections and Poetry

On My Own

In my mind

I quest

an idea

and grasp

a thought

without company

soundlessness

escapes 

conversation.

Solitude —

quiet imaginings

fill me

with ease.

I rejoice in 

my own conversation.

Stillness

encompasses

so I can

create.

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Testosterone: a reflection

The difference between male and female is testosterone. 

There are a number of biological differences, and similarities, between men and women, but for the purpose of this reflection, I focus on testosterone:)

When my son comes home on weekends from boarding school, it is lovely to see him. We get on quite well, even though we’ve not got a lot of interests in common at the moment. He has handled the recent, untimely passing of his father with great maturity, resolve and has drawn closer to me. I am grateful for that. I have handled the death with dignity and confidence in the LORD too. We both are doing alright… 

BUT to my point: when my son comes home part of my mind goes into a muddle.

That muddled thinking often occurred when speaking to my husband too. I thought it was that I was a bit overwhelmed by Alan’s personal power, but I reconsider that now, as it’s happening with Jordan too…. I think it’s the testosterone!

I wonder if that is one way of understanding, “Your desire will be for your husband, And he shall rule over you”? (Genesis 3:16)

The major way this muddle manifests/ed itself is in my memory and my speech; when I wanted to explain something to my husband, I would forget aspects or not explain as thoroughly as I would with a female friend — or even a male friend. The strong emphasis on chronological logical sequencing was what Alan needed, and I was weak on that, depending somewhat more upon aesthetic communication. 

My son and I communicate quite well. But I find my memory of things I want to do or to talk about gets pushed into the background; I frustrate him because I don’t finish conversations, but I can’t finish conversations because he is impatient and I feel the pressure from that.

I think it is testosterone that is affecting me.

In my husband’s case, he preferred I explain things a certain way so that he could understand. With my son, he prefers I get on quickly and thoroughly. In both cases, they have a strong preference counter to my own style, and the pressure puts me in a muddle. Who they are in my life and the value I place upon my relationship with them is a psychological reason I might feel pressure. But I also suspect that pressure is fuelled in them by their testosterone and passed onto me.

I wonder: does anyone have a similar experience?

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Can Biological Warfare be Confirmed through the Creative Arts?

Movies come to life

I recently saw a film… I won’t name it as I don’t want to create any spoilers for anyone. But within the film, an integral part of the plot was biological warfare.

For me, that was a red flag. It “spoke” to me. It affirmed the thought I’d had and shared last month about bio warfare possibly being behind the Corona Virus pandemic — For me, it leaned heinously toward greater probability, more than I would like to have thought.

The film was made before the pandemic. However, like so many other films worldwide it was not released, because of the closure of cinemas. The making of the film suggests to me that the sort of creative imagination which draws from real fear and concern of the day was not original to me. Just as film and creative art in general often have a hand on the pulse of society before society has even identified itself, so the idea of biological warfare was and is a realistic threat. Art gazes back and reflects society, but it also looks ahead to where we are going. And so, for me, the film is a kind of ‘evidence’ of the possibility I’d perceived; the root behind our pandemic really could be biological warfare.

As a result of this nod to my way of thinking, I am re-posting the substance of a previous post. I hope you will forgive me if you experience this as a barrage or a ‘hitting over the head’ of my point. The thing is, I’m more convinced now than I was when I first wrote the following….

Church Division and Biological Threat

“How good and pleasant it is when brethren dwell together in unity…” (Psalm 133:1) How vital, life-giving, essential and valuable it is.

I don’t have statistics, but I’d hazard a guess that the church body of believers have not been as divided throughout the Church Age until now, as they are over the issue of vaccines and Covid-19. Yes, perhaps the Protestant Reformation was as divisive, or the Puritans v the established Protestant Church. But these divisions help to accent my point: We are not united as a body, and we need to be as an effective witness to the world in these monstrously chaotic times.

“What does it matter what you eat or what you put on…” Yes, our Father in heaven looks out for our welfare. But sadly, folks are drawing battle lines over whether or not to wear a mask, whether or not to take a vaccine. Some in each camp even insinuate that those in the other camp are losing their salvation! Some shout ‘the vaccine contains 666’!

GOD will surely give us clear insight

From my point of view, we are not all prophets. In very recent memory, many established prophets “got it wrong” about the US presidential election. So, it is far easier to prophecy or point a finger at someone and say, “GOD told me you should….” then it is to be accurate. I celebrate the gifts of the Holy Spirit and encourage others to express themselves. But in this current climate, I’d like to look at the fruit from the exercise of these gifts as regards issues surrounding the pandemic.

The fruit of the Spirit is: love, joy peace, goodness, kindness, gentleness, faithfulness, long-suffering, self control, against which there is no law… (Galatians 5:22-23). In the hostility aroused over the pandemic issues, I see little love, joy or peace…

We are known by our fruits. What sort of fruit is being grown through this wrangle over whether or not to vaccinate? The fruit I’m concerned about is not fruit at all but hard-heartedness. 

Let’s not be hard-hearted

Jesus said regarding divorce, Moses only allowed it because of their hardness of the heart. (Matthew 19:8) Of such hardness Jesus was grieved (Mark 3:5) and Paul wrote of it in Romans 2:5 “But in accordance with your hard and impenitent heart you are treasuring up for yourself wrath in the day of wrath and revelation of the righteous judgment of GOD.”

Dear friends, to whom did Jesus refer when he spoke of self-righteousness and hardness of heart? The pharisees. Are we not in jeopardy of behaving as pharisees over this issue of the pandemic? Are we unequally yoking ourselves with unbelievers when we protest and rebel?*

I hope to take us to a peaceful place instead, a place of rightness with others and with GOD as we say like Joshua, “As for me and my house, we will serve the LORD.”

What is going on… really

One reason for protest against the actions and decisions of governments is triggered by a sense we are not being told the truth. That is quite possible… or at least it is possible and highly likely we are not being told the entire truth.

If we are in a place of harmony with our brothers and sisters in Christ, I wish to raise a topic — risking to open a can of worms, seeking to raise an issue that runs to a deeper level than the issue of the pandemic or the vaccine, though inextricably linked to these issues. 

Another possibility or back story to the pandemic entered my own mind recently, as I took time out to relax. As I allowed my mind and body to rest, an idea gradually surfaced in the void: We are in the midst of less a product of a medical pandemic, and much more of biological warfare.

This is pure speculation on my part, though born out of some contemplation after hearing a testimony of an American to some German medics about patent requests going back to 2003 for corona viruses and their vaccines: 

https://www.datascienceassn.org/content/dr-david-e-martin-testimony-july-9th-2021

Tracking my thoughts

How did Anthony Fauci and others know to attempt to patent for corona viruses and their vaccines almost twenty years in advance of this outbreak? How did they know about SARS and Covid-19? (Fauci failed to secure the patents he sought at that time, take note.)

Could the virus be purely man-made and it’s release not an accident? What if SARS was a deliberate attack during the GW Bush administration, against China? What if Covid-19 is a deliberate response? If we are engaged in biological warfare aka germ warfare, then is it no wonder we sense Western governments concealing something from us? It would be too undiplomatic politically, and too scary for citizens to hear these truths, wouldn’t it? Yes, perhaps our governments are not telling us the whole truth, but perhaps that’s for our safety.

We just don’t know what these viruses and vaccines are. We likely are not told the full story. If our governments know far more than they are telling us, maybe it is because telling us would be like putting petrol on a smouldering fire!

What if, I ponder… What if the enemy of my enemy is my friend? Thinking about Bill Gates, what if he’s actually trying to combat the Chinese and we, though caught in the cross-fire, are actually people he is trying to protect (contrary to what many think: that he’s one carrying the match!) What if?! We just don’t know.

In the big scheme of things

On the grand scale, we cannot know everything. Even Jesus didn’t know the date of his return, but only the Father (Matthew 24:36), so how can we possibly have the details of the Last Days, the machinations of Western and Foreign governments today, the intrigue and efforts of big pharma and big business? 

What is relevant to us

Though we don’t know the day or hour of Jesus’ return, and though we don’t know if his return is concurrent or consecutive with many other aspects of End Time prophecy, we do know more and more of his words of the End Times are coming to fruition.** In the big scheme of things, there is a remnant of followers of Jesus, a remnant in relation to the restoration of Israel with Yehovah GOD.

What we can do

We can draw close to GOD. We can be sure we are right with our Father, the Creator of the Universe. We can love Him and love one another just as Jesus commanded (John 13:34); we can dwell, abide, rest in Him.

We live on earth and yet are citizens of heaven, together. We can live together in love, joy and peace, that the world will know us by our love. 

As to wars and rumours of wars, whether they be biological or otherwise, these are not the end. Just as GOD forgives people time and again (Matthew 18:21-22), we too must forgive our enemies and our friends. We do not war against flesh and blood, but against principalities and powers. (Ephesians 6:12) And so we do not look at man nor blame man, but we look to GOD and His son, our Saviour Jesus, and follow — by the power of the Holy Spirit — to the ends of the earth, even unto the end of this earth.

We prepare, prepare, prepare: we prepare ourselves through the study of GOD’s Word, we prepare our loved ones through the gospel message, we prepare the world through our love of one another, that Israel and the World might know us by our love, and Yeshua Jesus as reflected through that love.

Hallelujah! Jesus is alive, and so are we. Fear not! Jesus has overcome the World.

What to do with our nervous energy

Never before in my lifetime, and perhaps never in modern time, has society stood still as it did during the lockdowns around the world. What has been beneficial about it?

It has given us time to consider GOD. Have we done it? We who claim our Saviour and Messiah as Jesus/Yeshua, when we have had extra time to be with Yehovah GOD like never before, have we used this time and opportunity wisely?

We can dig into His person, His Word, His love, His embrace and His holiness. If we have not yet done so, we can do so now.

We can come together closely (as things open up), sharing our time, our food, with one another as they did in Acts 4:32-35, “Now the multitude of those who believed were of one heart and one soul; neither did anyone say that any of the things he possessed was his own, but they had all things in common. And with great power the apostles gave witness to the resurrection of the Lord Jesus. And great grace was upon them all. Nor was there anyone among them who lacked; for all who were possessors of lands or houses sold them, and brought the proceeds of the things that were sold, and laid them at the apostles’ feet; and they distributed to each as anyone had need.”

And we can love one another as he first loved us.

This my friends, I do believe, is the best way through the fiery times we are in and the fiery times ahead.

Again I say, Hallelujah! Jesus is alive, and so are we. Fear not! Jesus has overcome the World.

  • Some have said they attended protests as an opportunity to evangelise the gospel of Jesus, rather than to actually participate or endorse the protesting. Wonderful! 

** Ezekiel 39-44: the third temple – Is it true that the altar already exists as does the Levitical priesthood?

    Also: Hosea 14:2; Micah 7:18020; Joel 2:15-17

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Faithfulness: Church needs to Change part 9

The Fruit of the Spirit

… is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law.” (Galatians 5:22)

What is Faithfulness?

There is so much we can say about faithfulness.

Recently I heard an Evangelist: Ryan Schiavo, speak about faithfulness as being reliable toward others as a mark of Christian character. In his context, faithfulness wasn’t just about belief in GOD but also about being consistent toward one another: following through on promises, keeping our word. I like that take, perhaps because I agree and aim to be a totally reliable person: my yes is yes; I keep appointments or request to be released and reschedule if I can’t; I stick to the commitments I make…. I need to work on punctuality as part of it.

Believing, trusting, being trustworthy, godly: these are all marks of faithfulness.

In this piece from the Church Needs to Change series, I simply want to touch upon the faith we need as a church body to believe: 1. to trust the Holy Spirit’s leading as a mark of being trustworthy toward GOD and one another, 2. to behave in a more and more godly manner as we go through life. Jesus did nothing beyond what his father lead him to do or say, and he did so by the power of the Holy Spirit. Furthermore, he said, “Be perfect as my Father in heaven is perfect.” If this were not possible, he would surely not have commanded it.

The church, I believe, needs to be expectant for GOD to move

Matthew 7:7 says, “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.”

  1. Let us expect when we pray that GOD will answer our prayers, rather than forget the prayer and continue to be anxious or concerned about the issue just prayed over.

And in Matthew 21:21, “So Jesus answered and said to them, “Assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith and do not doubt, you will not only do what was done to the fig tree, but also if you say to this mountain, ‘Be removed and cast into the sea,’ it will be done.”

  1. Let us ask GOD for His leading and then wait for it, rather than grow impatient, doubtful, or carry on with the programme as though we never asked for His lead.

And James 1:6 says, “But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind.”

  1. Let us dare to hope that GOD is moving and will move in our lives and that of our family’s, for salvations, for healings, for revelation, for His return.

The church needs to change its way of being

As the church truly is the body of believers and not a building or service structure, then can we make more room for GOD? Can we leave gaps in the service, or scrap the service entirely, so that our invitation to follow is proved sincere as we make room in our minds and in our lives, for GOD.

This sounds radical

We who love Jesus know that giving ourselves to GOD through a salvation prayer of confession is the start of a life following Jesus – the author and finisher of our faith. It is a wonderful start! But just as we make a fresh start at the point of salvation, perhaps it is time to allow the church organisation to be born again as well. Jesus said he would build his church — and then somewhere around 350 or 400AD we took over. 

How about we let him take the same tools he uses to convict and grow us, to build his church as well. 

Maranatha, Jesus come.

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Was the Instagram Crash Prophesied?

The Instagram Crash this week

Habakkuk 2:3 says, “For the vision is yet for an appointed time…”

GOD’s timing is always perfect, isn’t it!

I was at Conservative Party Conference this week. Putting the politics aside, I mention it only because I link it to the Facebook Crash that occurred on Monday.  

Within one hour of a panel discussion featuring an MP from the UK government, along with others who were expressing serious concern over the damage that social media has caused to the mental health of young people, there was a crash on the platforms Facebook, Instagram and WhatsApp.

I believe the crash was a prophetic moment, perhaps even a warning, because of the injustice and damage being done to young minds. The state government of the UK was discussing concern v the apparent lack of concern or accountability of the tech giants. Just an hour before a 5 hour world wide crash which hurt the Founder of Facebook, Mark Zuckerburg to the amount of some $7 billion US dollars on the American Stock Exchange, UK government bodies were speaking out against Instagram specifically. I see the crash as no coincidence but rather as a prophetic warning to the tech giants. Governments and families are deeply concerned. It was as though GOD heard and answered, attacking the giants on behalf of those who cannot protect themselves against the damage being caused.

As it is prayed in the Lord’s prayer:

“And do not lead us into temptation 

But deliver us from the evil one…” (Matthew 6:13a)

We seem to have been given a taste of His “kingdom, power and glory” when that crash occurred. 

May His protection cover us and speak to the consciences of those rich and powerful, who need to consider the consequences and costs of their enterprises to the humanity to which they profess to serve.

The banks had their warnings before the big crash of Lehman Bros in 2008, which caused huge damage to the stock markets and financial stability worldwide was severely shaken. Baring Brothers and Norman Rock fell first, but the system didn’t heed the warnings. Now, let’s pray that the Tech Giants will take note of the danger of too much power and too much progress too quickly. May they learn and change before their power comes crashing down, leaving everyone in shock and dismay.

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Isolation: the human need for Fellowship

Strength comes through Fellowship

“And they continued steadfastly in the apostles’ doctrine and fellowship, in the breaking of bread, and in prayers.” (Acts 2:42)

Isolation and helping others to cope

The content of the following post was originally entitled Loneliness: defining it, identifying it, managing it. I think it was mis-titled, as persons looking at the title probably expected something introspective. Rather this post is useful to minister to others AND relevant to our times as we are put into isolation/self isolation due to the issues surrounding the Covid pandemic (whether one agrees there is a pandemic or regardless of the danger or severity of the virus, we are called by respective governments to isolate upon receiving a positive test result).

So please read the following post with this in mind: We are an increasingly isolated population. Many are starved for relationship and true intimacy. We have the Helper, our GOD, who gives us intimacy like no human being can offer, however close, however compatible, however intimate s/he is to us. Though we also need human companionship, we can manage better than those who do not have the Holy Spirit, and we can learn to support others as we support ourselves.

If you read this last week, I hope you’ll read it again with the improved emphasis.

Isolation, Loneliness and Learning to cope

I had a dream recently and it helped me to understand loneliness.

The dream took place in an era past, where women wore long dresses — perhaps 150 years ago. The dream was about a young woman who was friendless. She was beautiful, quiet, pleasant, but she had no close friends.

One day she went for a walk with a prostitute. They were an unlikely pair, but they talked and in the end they had 10 minutes of passion which I did not dream but new had occurred.

To the prostitute it was a ministry time — she helped the woman rid herself of emotional tension. To the woman it was “glorious”, and she wondered if she was in love. To me, the physical intimacy was (inappropriately) a means to pause temporarily, the emotional pain and starvation from a lack of intimacy.

I am not advocating sex as therapy, nor am I advocating sex between two woman as righteous. I am advocating a serious look at what we as human beings need to feel whole and loved…. it is not sex. It is a meeting of the heart.

In the dream, I sensed the isolation the young woman felt. It was in an era before psychology, a time when the woman might not have known how to define or even to understanding what she was feeling, or the root of it. It was in an era when homosexuality was not acceptable socially or morally, and so it was not a lifestyle option to be advocated for. The woman was a lover of quiet beauty. For some unknown reason, she was unmarried and quite without family, not because she was an outcast but because there was no one with whom she talked to. She spent her time alone for no particular reason I knew in the dream. She just “was” as characters and situations often are in dreams.

The prostitute appeared in the dream, not as one pursuing income — for certainly that would only have come through engagement with a man. She too was alone, friendless, in a society where prostitutes’ only friends were other prostitutes. She was walking in the wood and came across this young woman and they talked.

I was not privy to their conversation but it was not about sex or lust or even about loneliness. They just talked and somehow had a mutuality. They enjoyed each other’s company. Somehow they also had a ‘moment of passion’. Had the dream continued long I suspect the young woman would have had to cope with great confusion about the relationship, the 10 minutes, what — if anything — to do about it. There was a fleeting moment to conclude the dream when an older man approached the woman, told her of his deep love for her, and she said she thought she was in love with the prostitute. I believe her sharing her secret with him, and his maturity and sincere love, would have directed her to understand her need for others, forgiven (for in that era it would be needed) her the 10 minutes, and guided her toward healthy emotional intimacy. If fact, the older man was probably GOD, the Father for us all, if we will embrace His love and forgiveness.

What this dream confirms for me

We live in a confused and busy society. Intimacy has been replaced with activity. But when the pandemic led to lock down, people’s engagement moved almost completely to online chats and activity halted. We had an opportunity to learn to engage, to engage differently yes but to at least engage. Some have done so, others have despaired from loneliness.

Loneliness is lacking intimacy and the way to cope with loneliness is opening our hearts to others.

To express healthy intimacy, we do not share lightly but wisely, finding others who are trustworthy and with whom we engage on matters beyond the superficial, also letting down the pretence of self-sufficiency.

We share wisely, with others who are trustworthy and non-judgmental.

We share at levels, more deeply with those closer. 

We share most deeply, if we are wise, with our Lord and Saviour Yeshua Jesus, and with the Father, though our walk with the Holy Spirit.

But GOD knows we need people. He created people because He wants to engage with others… He created David and Jonathan, friends who loved one another as brothers. Even Jesus, who had thousands of followers and a 120 numbered disciples, had his closest 12, his dearest 3 and John, “the disciple whom Jesus loved” as his dearest friend.

It is not easy to find close friends. And we become proficient in our society to learn to manage on our own. But we need friends.

Autumn is here and winter is coming

I’m posting this in September because we are approaching the winter season, This is the time when the light fades earlier and people step outside less often, not lingering on the street to chat with neighbours, which is for some, their only opportunity for conversation.

I’m posting this because we live in a society where sex has replaced intimacy for many people. All people are empty inside and are in need of love, care and communication, but sadly, some confuse intimacy and sex and look to fill the void with the latter.

I’m posting this because I realise I lack my truest close friend now that my husband has passed away… although even my husband was not as close to me as Jesus, with whom I receive total understanding.


I’m posting this because we all need intimacy. The deepest intimacy comes through our relationship with Jehovah GOD. But He knows we also need flesh and bone relationship and conversation — not just conversation on a superficial level, though that helps; we need a meeting of the heart. Sometimes this springs from shared activity; sometimes from analytical conversation and a sharing of ideas — a meeting of the mind. But we do need it. We are made that way. And it’s okay to yearn for it when we lack it.

I recently read in Elizabeth Elliot’s book Suffering is Never for Nothing, that love ultimately leads to suffering. I am not advocating suffering but I am advocating taking the risk of sharing earnestly with carefully chosen persons, which may lead to disappointment, suffering. Even though it might, I say this in advance: Don’t give up.

We are a lonely society, with more connections than we know how to handle, and perhaps without one or two we really need. 

I pray for us all, that intimacy with the Father will grow, and that He will lead us to others who will help to fulfil that void, the emptiness of loneliness, that only an earnest and healthy relationship with a fellow human being can fill.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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Loneliness: defining it, identifying it, managing it

I had a dream recently and it helped me to understand loneliness.


The dream took place in an era past, where women wore long dresses — perhaps 150 years ago. The dream was about a young woman who was friendless. She was beautiful, quiet, pleasant, but she had no close friends.

One day she went for a walk with a prostitute. They were an unlikely pair, but they talked and in the end they had 10 minutes of passion which I did not dream but new had occurred.

To the prostitute it was a ministry time — she helped the woman rid herself of emotional tension. To the woman it was “glorious”, and she wondered if she was in love. To me, the physical intimacy was (inappropriately) a means to pause temporarily, the emotional pain and starvation from a lack of intimacy.

I am not advocating sex as therapy, nor am I advocating sex between two woman as righteous. I am advocating a serious look at what we as human beings need to feel whole and loved…. it is not sex. It is a meeting of the heart.

In the dream, I sensed the isolation the young woman felt. It was in an era before psychology, a time when the woman might not have known how to define or even to understanding what she was feeling, or the root of it. It was in an era when homosexuality was not acceptable socially or morally, and so it was not a lifestyle option to be advocated for. The woman was a lover of quiet beauty. For some unknown reason, she was unmarried and quite without family, not because she was an outcast but because there was no one with whom she talked to. She spent her time alone for no particular reason I knew in the dream. She just “was” as characters and situations often are in dreams.

The prostitute appeared in the dream, not as one pursuing income — for certainly that would only have come through engagement with a man. She too was alone, friendless, in a society where prostitutes’ only friends were other prostitutes. She was walking in the wood and came across this young woman and they talked.

I was not privy to their conversation but it was not about sex or lust or even about loneliness. They just talked and somehow had a mutuality. They enjoyed each other’s company. Somehow they also had a ‘moment of passion’. Had the dream continued long I suspect the young woman would have had to cope with great confusion about the relationship, the 10 minutes, what — if anything — to do about it. There was a fleeting moment to conclude the dream when an older man approached the woman, told her of his deep love for her, and she said she thought she was in love with the prostitute. I believe her sharing her secret with him, and his maturity and sincere love, would have directed her to understand her need for others, forgiven (for in that era it would be needed) her the 10 minutes, and guided her toward healthy emotional intimacy. If fact, the older man was probably GOD, the Father for us all, if we will embrace His love and forgiveness.

What this dream confirms for me

We live in a confused and busy society. Intimacy has been replaced with activity. But when the pandemic led to lock down, people’s engagement moved almost completely to online chats and activity halted. We had an opportunity to learn to engage, to engage differently yes but to at least engage. Some have done so, others have despaired from loneliness.

Loneliness is lacking intimacy and the way to cope with loneliness is opening our hearts to others.

To express healthy intimacy, we do not share lightly but wisely, finding others who are trustworthy and with whom we engage on matters beyond the superficial, also letting down the pretence of self-sufficiency.

We share wisely, with others who are trustworthy and non-judgmental.

We share at levels, more deeply with those closer. 

We share most deeply, if we are wise, with our Lord and Saviour Yeshua Jesus, and with the Father, though our walk with the Holy Spirit.

But GOD knows we need people. He created people because He wants to engage with others… He created David and Jonathan, friends who loved one another as brothers. Even Jesus, who had thousands of followers and a 120 numbered disciples, had his closest 12, his dearest 3 and John, “the disciple whom Jesus loved” as his dearest friend.

It is not easy to find close friends. And we become proficient in our society to learn to manage on our own. But we need friends.

Autumn is here and winter is coming

I’m posting this in September because we are approaching the winter season, This is the time when the light fades earlier and people step outside less often, not lingering on the street to chat with neighbours, which is for some, their only opportunity for conversation.

I’m posting this because we live in a society where sex has replaced intimacy for many people. All people are empty inside and are in need of love, care and communication, but sadly, some confuse intimacy and sex and look to fill the void with the latter.

I’m posting this because I realise I lack my truest close friend now that my husband has passed away… although even my husband was not as close to me as Jesus, with whom I receive total understanding.


I’m posting this because we all need intimacy. The deepest intimacy comes through our relationship with Jehovah GOD. But He knows we also need flesh and bone relationship and conversation — not just conversation on a superficial level, though that helps; we need a meeting of the heart. Sometimes this springs from shared activity; sometimes from analytical conversation and a sharing of ideas — a meeting of the mind. But we do need it. We are made that way. And it’s okay to yearn for it when we lack it.

I recently read in Elizabeth Elliot’s book Suffering is Never for Nothing, that love ultimately leads to suffering. I am not advocating suffering but I am advocating taking the risk of sharing earnestly with carefully chosen persons, which may lead to disappointment, suffering. Even though it might, I say this in advance: Don’t give up.

We are a lonely society, with more connections than we know how to handle, and perhaps without one or two we really need. 

I pray for us all, that intimacy with the Father will grow, and that He will lead us to others who will help to fulfil that void, the emptiness of loneliness, that only an earnest and healthy relationship with a fellow human being can fill.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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Biological Warfare, End Times and being united as One Body

“How good and pleasant it is when brethren dwell together in unity…” (Psalm 133:1) How vital, life-giving, essential and valuable it is.

I don’t have statistics, but I’d hazard a guess that the church body of believers have not been as divided throughout the Church Age until now, as they are over the issue of vaccines and Covid-19. Yes, perhaps the Protestant Reformation was as divisive, or the Puritans v the established Protestant Church. But these divisions help to accent my point: We are not united as a body, and we need to be as an effective witness to the world in these monstrously chaotic times.

“What does it matter what you eat or what you put on…” Yes, our Father in heaven looks out for our welfare. But sadly, folks are drawing battle lines over whether or not to wear a mask, whether or not to take a vaccine. Some in each camp even insinuate that those in the other camp are losing their salvation! Some shout ‘the vaccine contains 666’!

GOD will surely give us clear insight

From my point of view, we are not all prophets. In very recent memory, many established prophets “got it wrong” about the US presidential election. So, it is far easier to prophecy or point a finger at someone and say, “GOD told me you should….” than it is to be accurate. I celebrate the gifts of the Holy Spirit and encourage others to express themselves. But in this current climate, I’d like to look at the fruit from the exercise of these gifts as regards issues surrounding the pandemic.

The fruit of the Spirit is: love, joy peace, goodness, kindness, gentleness, faithfulness, long-suffering, self control, against which there is no law… (Galatians 5:22-23). In the hostility aroused over the pandemic issues, I see little love, joy or peace…

We are known by our fruits. What sort of fruit is being grown through this wrangle over whether or not to vaccinate? The fruit I’m concerned about is not fruit at all but hard-heartedness. 

Let’s not be hard-hearted

Jesus said regarding divorce, Moses only allowed it because of their hardness of the heart. (Matthew 19:8) Of such hardness Jesus was grieved (Mark 3:5) and Paul wrote of it in Romans 2:5 “But in accordance with your hard and impenitent heart you are treasuring up for yourself wrath in the day of wrath and revelation of the righteous judgment of GOD.”

Dear friends, to whom did Jesus refer when he spoke of self-righteousness and hardness of heart? The pharisees. Are we not in jeopardy of behaving as pharisees over this issue of the pandemic. Are we unequally yoking ourselves with unbelievers when we protest and rebel.*

Instead, I want to take us to a peaceful place, a place of rightness with others and with GOD as we say like Joshua, “As for me and my house, we will serve the LORD.”

What may really be going on

One reason for protest against the actions and decisions of governments is triggered by a sense we are not being told the truth. That is quite possible… or at least not the entire truth.

Once we are in a place of harmony with our brothers and sisters in Christ, I wish to raise a topic — risking to open a can of worms, seeking to raise an issue that runs to a deeper level than the issue of the pandemic or the vaccine, though inextricably linked to these issues. 

Another possibility or back story to the pandemic entered my own mind recently, as I took time out to relax. When I allowed my thoughts to rest, gradually, an idea came to me and took root: that we are in the midst of, not so much a pandemic, but of biological warfare.

This is pure speculation on my part, though born out of some contemplation after hearing a testimony of an American to some German medics about patent requests going back to 2003 for corona viruses and their vaccines: 

https://www.datascienceassn.org/content/dr-david-e-martin-testimony-july-9th-2021

My thinking trail

How did Anthony Fauci and others know to attempt to patent for corona viruses and their vaccines? How did they know so far in advance of SARS and Covid-19? (Fauci failed to secure the patents he sought at that time, take note.)

What if the virus is purely man-made and it’s release is not an accident? What if SARS was a deliberate attack during the GW Bush administration, against China? What if Covid-19 is a deliberate response? If we are engaged in biological warfare aka germ warfare, then is it no wonder we sense Western governments concealing something from us? It would be too undiplomatic politically, and too scary for citizens, to hear these truths, wouldn’t it?

And so, we just don’t know… what these viruses and vaccines are. And we perhaps don’t know the full story — Perhaps, if our governments know far more than they are telling us, maybe it is because telling us would be like putting petrol on a smouldering fire!

What if, I ponder, what if the enemy of my enemy is my friend? Thinking about Bill Gates, what if he’s actually trying to combat the Chinese and we, though caught in the cross-fire, are actually people he is trying to protect (contrary to what many think: that he’s one carrying the match!) What if?! We just don’t know.

In the big scheme of things

On the grand scale, we cannot know everything. Even Jesus didn’t know the date of his return, but only the Father (Matthew 24:36), so how can we possibly have the details of the Last Days, the machinations of Western and Foreign governments today, the intrigue and efforts of big pharma and big business? 

What is relevant to us

Though we don’t know the day or hour of Jesus’ return, and though we don’t know if his return is concurrent or consecutive with many other aspects of End Time prophecy, we do know more and more of his words of the End Times are coming to fruition.** In the big scheme of things, there is a remnant of followers of Jesus, a remnant in relation to the restoration of Israel with Yehovah GOD.

What we can do

We can draw close to GOD. We can be sure we are right with our Father, the Creator of the Universe. We can love Him and love one another has Jesus commanded (John 13:34) and dwell, abide, rest in Him.

We are citizens of earth and citizens of heaven, together. We can live together in love, joy and peace, that the world will know us by our love. 

As to wars and rumours of wars, whether they be biological or otherwise, these are not the end. Just as GOD forgives time and again (Matthew 18:21-22), we too must forgive our enemies and our friends. We do not war against flesh and blood, but against principalities and powers. (Ephesians 6:12) And so we do not look at man nor blame man, but we look to GOD and His son, our Saviour Jesus, and follow — by the power of the Holy Spirit — to the ends of the earth, even unto the end of this earth.

We prepare, prepare, prepare: we prepare ourselves through the study of GOD’s Word, we prepare our loved ones through the gospel message, we prepare the world through our love of one another, that Israel and the World might know us by our love, and Yeshua Jesus as reflected through that love.

Hallelujah! Jesus is alive, and so are we. Fear not! Jesus has overcome the World.

What to do with our nervous energy

Never before in my lifetime, and perhaps never in modern time, has society stood still as it did during the lockdowns around the world. What was beneficial in this time?

It has gaven us time to consider GOD. Have we done it? We who claim our Saviour and Messiah as Jesus/Yeshua, when we have had extra time to be with Yehovah GOD like never before, have we used this time and opportunity wisely?

We can dig into His person, His Word, His love, His embrace and His holiness. If we have not yet, we can do so now.

We can come close together (as things open up), sharing our time, our food, with one another as they did in Acts 4:32-35, “Now the multitude of those who believed were of one heart and one soul; neither did anyone say that any of the things he possessed was his own, but they had all things in common. And with great power the apostles gave witness to the resurrection of the Lord Jesus. And great grace was upon them all. Nor was there anyone among them who lacked; for all who were possessors of lands or houses sold them, and brought the proceeds of the things that were sold, and laid them at the apostles’ feet; and they distributed to each as anyone had need.”

And we can love one another as he first loved us.

This my friends, I do believe, is the best way through the fiery times we are in and the fiery times ahead.

Again I say, Hallelujah! Jesus is alive, and so are we. Fear not! Jesus has overcome the World.

  • Some have said they attended protests as an opportunity to evangelise the gospel of Jesus, rather than to actually participate or endorse the protesting. Wonderful! 

** Ezekiel 39-44: the third temple – Is it true that the altar already exists as does the Levitical priesthood?

    Also: Hosea 14:2; Micah 7:18020; Joel 2:15-17

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Politics and Society today

Pray before you Post, Be Meek before you Speak

by Rev Dr Hugh Alexander Jackman

Pray before you Post, Be meek before you speak.

On behalf of Spirit and Life Ministries, I would like to make a brief statement which I hope will bring a sense of calm and balance to those members of the  body of Christ who may hear it from me. I know this may make me less popular with some of you, I wish it were not so, but this is unimportant to me, since I do not seek popularity or fame. 

I believe the devil is seeking to divide the body of Christ over the issue of Coronavirus vaccinations. Almost every day, rather than becoming offended, I am sending private messages to friends and loved ones who have taken a stance or publicly shared something on this issue, which would be offensive to other believers in Christ. 

We have to face a stark reality – Some Christians have taken the vaccine whilst others have not. 

Whilst I support my brothers or sisters in whichever decision they choose to make, I am increasingly concerned about those who insist on taking the moral or spiritual high ground because of their particular stance. 

If you are unvaccinated, you do so by faith, choosing to trust God and not medicine. Perhaps you are to be commended in this, but no more so than the believer who after prayer, and also by Faith, chooses to be vaccinated without fear of any any earthly consequences. 

To me, spiritually speaking, both positions are worthy of some applause. However, I find nothing in the Bible to suggest that one stance makes you more blessed than the other. No matter how you may feel about the situation my appeal to you today is to

Pray before you post. Be meek before you speak.

If we continue to allow the devil to divide us, our Gospel will find itself lost in a world of controversy and confusion.

So again my appeal is, Pray before you post. Be meek before you speak.

Do not insult your brothers and sisters in Christ bringing them into offence with you by implying that they are unspiritual or immature simply because their stance is different to yours. They and you are equally washed in the blood of Jesus. There is no partiality with God.

I believe as the body of Christ, in many cases, we are the only light that this world will see. If they don’t see God in us, particularly in our unity, perhaps they will not see him anywhere.

Christians, please do not share videos and messages from unqualified and unbiblical  sources. This is very dangerous because in most cases,  it only leads to further confusion and division. Remember your friends, family and loved ones are looking to you for truth. In this regard, You owe them the Gospel, nothing else. 

Apostle Paul wrote

1 Corinthians 1:10 (NKJV) 10 Now I plead with you, brethren, by the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that you all speak the same thing, and that there be no divisions among you, but that you be perfectly joined together in the same mind and in the same judgment.

Again, in Ephesians 4:1-6 (KJV) He writes, I  beseech you that ye walk worthy of the vocation wherewith ye are called, 2 With all lowliness and meekness, with longsuffering, forbearing one another in love; 3 Endeavouring to keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.  4 There is one body, and one Spirit, even as ye are called in one hope of your calling; 5 One Lord, one faith, one baptism, 6 One God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all.

From Heavens perspective – Your stance regarding this issue is largely unimportant. It has no bearing upon your salvation in this world or in the world to come. It does not gain you any higher position than anyone else so for goodness sake, let it go.

My brothers and sisters we are living in the last of the last days and as such we know that the devil will seek to divide us. Jesus said, a house divided will not be able to stand. So do not let him succeed. Stop trying to take the high ground on your position at the detriment of another, but rather give thanks to God for His grace in our lives. 

Pray and thank God for your life, and for the life of all of your loved ones today. Pray in unity for the governments of the land where you live, wherever you are, to come into alignment with God’s perfect will for this world. 

Again I appeal to you, Pray before you post. Be Meek before you Speak

Thank you for taking the time to listen to and share this message. I would like to end with the words of our Lord Jesus Christ.

From Mark 7:15 Nothing outside a person can defile them by going into them. Rather, it is what comes out of a person that defiles them.”

God Bless you 

In Peace and in love.

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Preparing the Bride of Jesus Christ

Gluttony is Rife

This is a rarely examined topic, perhaps because we — in the West — are guilty, and eating is such a part of our lifestyle that we don’t see over indulgence for what it really is…

Recently, I was convicted by the LORD. Oh, I am not hugely overweight or ill; I exercise and eat a lot of fresh fruit and veggies. But I eat more than I need, and I snack. That is common. But is it righteous?

How I was convicted

When my husband Alan was seriously ill in hospital this past winter, I did a lot of praying, often late into the night. I didn’t feel much like preparing meals, let alone eating them. And so, I began to lose weight, weight which I’d been aiming to lose for nearly 10 years.

Alan passed away on 10th March this year. I didn’t feel much like eating after that either.

Then I began to realise I had been in the habit of eating far more food, far more often, than I actually needed.

Determined to make something positive from that horrible 3 months, I decided I didn’t want to regain the weight I’d lost. And I haven’t. How did I do that? By accepting that I eat far more than I require, and I eat more frequently than I need as well.

In the course of changing my eating habits, I realised how poor they’d been. I realised I’d been reliant on food, with eating as an activity and taste being a higher priority than necessity.

Gluttony is defined as unhealthy indulgence, habitual greed or excess in eating or drinking. It isn’t attractive (nor is the consequence of it). But according to the definitions, it is far more common amongst us than we might like to think.

I’ve attempted to execute more self control when it comes to eating.

Gluttony a sin?

The body is the temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20), and so of course we will consider anything we do in light of this.

Although gluttony is one of the “seven deadly sins”, that concept is not specific to the Bible; yet, we do recognise that we are responsible for our attitudes and actions. Excess of any kind could be considered a form of idolatry, and certainly it shows a lack of self control. But all this is a bit legalistic, isn’t it, when we look at behaviour rather than the heart.

Why do we over-eat? To comfort ourselves? And yet, the Holy Spirit is our comforter (John 14:15-17; Acts 9:31). If we eat to comfort, are we pushing the Spirit of GOD away?

Why do we over-eat? To celebrate? Doesn’t Jesus endorse celebration; witness the marriage at Cana, where he turned water into wine (John 2:1-6). Doesn’t the Father, as he created the Feast days (2 Chronicles 8:13)!

And yet, when we look into our hearts, do we need to over-indulge, and if so, why?

I am not endorsing gluttony. I am not, on the other hand, declaring celebration to be ungodly. I am encouraging myself to take responsibility and control over when, what and how much I eat. Just because I can eat whatever I like, and have the relative means to do so, does not mean it is wise or healthy or even godly.

What did Jesus say in Matthew, “For John came neither eating or drinking, and they say, ‘he has a demon.’ The Son of Man came eating and drinking, and they say, ‘look a glutton and a winebibber…” but as Paul says in Romans 14:17, “for the kingdom of GOD is not eating and drinking, but righteousness, peace, and joy in the Holy Spirit.”

Whatever we do, let our minds be sharp and our hearts pure, allowing the word of GOD to dwell in us, and allowing our convictions to renew our minds with our actions to follow.

“Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue, and if there is anything praiseworthy — meditate on these things.” (Philippians 4:8)